Dreams, Nightmares, and the Blasted MTA

So this morning I woke up in a cold sweat, and it wasn't just because I realized I had overslept. I had this nightmare that shook me to the core and confused me all at the same time. In it, I married an ex of mine...I won't even go into the other crazy aspects of the dreams but for those of you who are reading this that actually know me, if I told you who it was, you would fall out. And of course, it terrified me beyond belief.

It also brought to the forefront a recurring dream about marriage that I've been having for years now, always at seemingly random times. In it, I dream that I get all gussied up to get married to the love of my life, only to be stood up at the altar. It always plays out the same way with slight variations...one time, I could almost see who the person was that I was supposed to marry, and in another, my dress sash was a different color. In yet another, the dream picked up a little where it left off from me being left at the altar.

Now, I've been doing some reading on recurring dreams. On the website science.howstuffworks.com, they say this about recurring dreams:
Overcoming Recurring Dreams
Following are some tips to help you in overcoming your recurring dreams.
1. To start to understand your recurring dream, you must be willing to accept some sort of change or undergo a transformation.
2. You need to look within yourself and confront whatever you may find no matter how difficult it may be.
3. Look at the dream from an objective point of view. Try to get pass the emotional and reactive elements of the dream and get down to the symbolic images. Often times, dreams are masked by elements that are disturbing, thus preventing you to delve any deeper. This is a defense mechanism that your unconscious is putting up.
4. Each and every time you have a recurring dream, write it down in great detail. Look for any subtle variations. These variations are the most significant as it indicates that you are one step closer to understanding why the dream recurs.
5. Pay attention to what is going on in your waking life when you have these recurring dreams. You may start to notice a pattern.
6. Be patient. Do not get discourage if these dreams still recur even after you thought you have come to understand them.
7. Learn to accept yourself truly and fully.
Once you discover what your recurring dream is trying to tell you, these dreams will change or altogether disappear.

After having read that, I said, ok. I think these are all things I've been doing...I just want to stop having these dreams. I know I hate being vulnerable, I know that I can be stubborn and difficult and the like...I just haven't been able to decipher this one yet. Any takers??


Moving on to my day, the month wouldn't be complete if I didn't go on my tirade about the MTA (Metropolitan Transit Authority). The MTA's motto is, "Going Your Way". 8 times out of 10, it's not. Between the constant delays, the endless fare hikes, the sucky service, and the filthy train stations (see my blog on my plight with the damn rat), it's an all in all terrible thing. And today, of course, was no exception...

Because I woke up late, I was rushing to get to work on time. I figured that at the very least, I'd only be about 5 to 10 minutes late. So after rushing for the railroad in the am and rushing for the A train, I finally catch a break at West 4th street when I jog down the stairs and lo! there is a F train waiting for me to get on it. Yess. I get on...the doors close...and then they announce that because of some train being stuck on the 2nd Ave line (my stop), that they were rerouting all F trains on the A line, so the train was going to skip the next five (count 'em, five) stops, and that I would have to transfer in BROOKLYN to the uptown train to go back the five stops to get off at 2nd Avenue.

By this time, I'm hot. Not only am I late, I am EXTRA late. Over a half hour. The conductor says that they (the MTA) will provide notes for people who were late to work as a result of the delays. I get off at 2nd Avenue finally, ask the information agent for the note, and she says she not only doesn't HAVE any note like that, but that she has no further information at this time. So I ask you: 1. if you're the information agent and you don't have the information and you don't have any means to access the information needed...what good are you as an information agent? 2. WHY did they raise the fares again??? Adding to that, they delayed the building of the 2nd Avenue Subway AGAIN for another 2 years to raise more capital. But if you raised my fare to help generate the money needed for the subway...and it's been pushed back again and again, I ask again, WHY did they raise my fare again?

Just some thoughts for ya...I'm going to try to go lay down so there's no oversleeping again...night!

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