Fuming Quietly, Blessed Slowly.

I'm fuming right now. Sigh. I don't know why. My temper and I have been doing real well. So why am I fuming right now? I got into it with a good friend of mine (well, we didn't REALLY get into it, that's just the way I see it right now) and I told her most of how I felt about the whole thing...now I just need time to get over being upset...why am I upset again? Oh. Oh yes, that's right. I know why. I feel sometimes like I am the most misunderstood understood person sometimes. Basically, I'm very open, honest, forthcoming, yadda yadda...and then...

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The Beautiful Nightmare

You ever have a dream that was so real, so life like, that you woke up and it took you a minute to realize that you were dreaming? What if that dream scared the mess out of you? Not a nightmare...a DREAM...am I making any sense here? My daughter was sick for the better portion of a week the week before last. I've been Airborne(ing) it, hot toddying it, and Vitamin Cing it up for weeks now, to fight off the cold that she had. It got me anyway...and the nighttime coughing, sniffling, sneezing, help you go into a drug induced mini coma medicine did...

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Cyber Stalking - LAME!!

I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and they were telling me about an ex of theirs who was tracking their movements through Facebook via other people's pages. After my initial reaction of disgust ("you're using my page to do WHAAAT?") I stopped and pondered for a minute. Maybe there was something to this cyber stalking thing. (guffaws) Like hell there is! How lame can you get? I mean, let's think about this for a minute. You and your boo-of-the-moment are doing your thing, enjoying your sexing 'living in the moment', and then, suddenly,...

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Them: "You...elitist!!" Me: "GASP! Yuh cuss meh?!" (Or is it?)

More and more I find myself leaning towards the books of sociopolitical commentators and satirists. Books by Bill Maher made me laugh until tears streamed down my face, reads by Dr. Cosby and Rick Shenkman made me chuckle and say, "You know...that's true..", Ayn Rand's "Atlas Shrugged" gave me new insight into capitalism and how it affects sociology, and Ann Coulter and Glenn Beck made me fold my arms, snicker, and say, "Huh...never thought I'd say it, but that's pretty true..." Of course, out of fear of losing my black card (I'm just kidding...sort...

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Haiti's Hope for the Future - Please support!

This event is important to me and to others, but most of all to those that need it. Please support! Haiti’s Hope for the Future 27% of the population of Haiti cannot afford basic essentials nor send their children to school. Haiti is the poorest country in the Western Hemisphere with no government funded social service programs existing to address the needs of these people. Our mission is to raise $398,100.00 needed to build a school for the children of Haiti. With your support we can help achieve that goal. On December 2, 2009, Hope for the...

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Gaming Yo Peeps

You ever have a friend that you thought was down for you, down for your dreams, your aspirations, one who you thought you could share with and be honest with, who you thought wouldn't take your honesty and kindness for weakness? And then they 'game' you? I know it's not just me. Lately, it's been the refrain of my besties and the like. People who seemingly have your back and then you find out that anything but is the case. What is it about the innate nature of people that cause them to 'game' you? Though...

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The Buddy Curse

I think I might have 'buddy' stamped on my forehead. No, really, I'm serious. If you're on my FB page, then you may (or not) have seen my status about my lovely just-turned-96 year old grandmother explaining to me that the reason that I don't have a man yet is because I don't know how to fold clothes. Before that, I was chatting with an ex of mine (though I don't know if he really qualifies as an ex, but more on that later) about relationships and people and why I was still single (well, he wanted to know.) Let's expound. We were talking about...

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The 'Truth' about Chivalry

The following excerpt is from my girl D's blog, "Life in the D Lane", the entry entitled "Puddles". I had to share this story - it might be one of the sweetest things I've ever read. It also, of course, got me to thinking...as most things tend to do. "I took one look outside and saw that the sky was no longer crying, it was screaming, but that wasn’t the reason for my hesitation. I had never come home from school alone in the rain before. I hadn’t gone anywhere alone in the rain before. I always had Chris. He always carried me, put plastic...

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Behind the Scenes of a Sleepy Rambler

I need sleep. I always need sleep. If you were to ask my number one ride or die, she'd tell you that I don't sleep enough. At ALL. And I know this. It's probably part of the reason that my thoughts ramble so much...I know that my body needs at least 8 hours on a consistent basis to function at least at 80%. And yet I don't sleep. It's not by choice always, either. There are many nights that I am being SuperMommy, taking care of my daughter and then, after she goes to bed, cooking/cleaning/prepping for the next day, and, before you know it,...

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The "In-Laws" and Family Take Over

My daughter told me this weekend that her aunt on her father's side gives her soda when she comes to visit. I don't allow her to drink soda. When my daughter tried to explain this to her aunt, her aunt's response was that she was not me and that she didn't have to obey my rules. GRRR. Why are people on the opposite end of the spectrum so disrespectful? I mean, what is it about "in-laws" (quotations because I'm not married) that make dealing with them so hard? If someone that I am caring for 'en loco parentis' tells me that their parent doesn't...

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Viva La Arrogant Pipe!!

One of the wonderful things about my good friends is that they are just as crazy and mad as I am. It is this quality that endears me to them, that makes me smile when I am not in the mood, that causes me to come close to spitting my gum/juice/sandwich across the room if I am reading what they are saying while imbibing any of those things. More often than not, my sides are aching from laughing so hard after dealing with them.Yesterday, of course, was no exception. We were talking about 'getting some', and our choice of partners. Now. In this day...

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On to the Next One and all great songs in between

Isn't it amazing how music speaks to your life? Like, you ever hear a song and you get so lost in the lyrics and the music because it just sounded like whoever the songwriter was literally sat with you in your room while you devoured that mocha chip ice cream and listened to your tears ramble? Or caught you when you were daydreaming at dance school about using the wall for support because he was...Oh. Maybe that's just how I feel about a good song.I love music and I love listening to music. Many a time, even now as I write this, I am jamming to...

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Is it time to walk away?

So this morning, I read something that my homie posted and I caught a jealousy attack for about, five seconds. GASP. I don't do jealousy. I am secure in myself and who I am. I am secure in my relations with my friends and whomever I may be seeing/dealing with at the present moment. I know my value in each of these individual relationships, and, if for some reason, I find myself questioning my value in the relationship, then it's time to reevaluate the relationship. So then, why the moment? Why did my heart get a little tight and my eyes a little...

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Torn

Disclaimer: This piece is prose of poetic fiction. Any resemblances to current people is entirely coincidental. What happens when you feel it in your gut so strong Unexplainable desires and wanton lust for the mind Bodily desires cast aside, you want to be one and the same with his brainHis words blow your mind 65 times infinity plus 4Always leave you wanting more But you know this bad habit is more than a song Everyone's told you it's wrongThis type of thing you've fell victim to for too longSo what does one do?When the waking moment desire is...

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Courtin' (an ode to R&B)

Disclaimer: This piece is prose of poetic fiction. Any resemblances to current people is entirely coincidental. *wink*Courtin' (an ode to R&B)We took A Long Walk and talked about past lives Touched on Revelations 3:17 and Jay-Z all in the same breathHe had me open...palms forward, heart on sleeve, all that And I wanted to be His Favorite Girl with no one Getting in the WayI wanted No More Drama And I was hoping that he was the keySee, I was already happy with me But when he said I was So Beautiful It brought me past my own self satisfaction...

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Priorities versus Options - Which one are you?

I am my own top priority. There are also a few people in my life who I consider a priority..my daughter is a given, followed by my family and my close friends. These people show up in my phone as "ICE" - "In Case of Emergency". They are the people that, God forbid something happens to me, I would like contacted because they would know what needs to be done. Some of those ICE's were deleted today. And it's nothing personal. It is, rather simply, that they are no longer priorities in my life - primarily because they have neglected to make me a priority...

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Dance Fever vs. My Aging Reality

As I write this, I am contemplating filling up the bathtub with warm water and Epsom salts to soak in. And it is the NEXT. DAY.Next day of what, you might ask? Yesterday, I went to dance class for the first time in over six years. When I was growing up, I was a dance fiend. Everywhere I went, all I did was dance. I danced for about 12 years, from elementary school to the end of high school when my dance school closed, and then 2 years in college. I then taught for two years and eight months, up until two weeks before I was due with my daughter,...

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Go and Get De Switch From De Back...

If you've ever grown up in a West Indian household, you know that either your mother, your father, or one of the many elders that you grew up with at some point was bound to be the one to beat you when you got out of line. Now, granted, when I say beat, I don't mean abuse (though I will readily admit, in some folks cases, it was rather borderline), but I mean the phrase that every kid growing up in the islands or anywhere with nice foliage dreaded..."go 'long in de back and get de switch..." In America and in more recent times, it was amended to,...

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Did I Miss Something?

The ongoing running joke with my friends and I is that the WEIRDEST, most UNUSUAL things happen to me. Lately, I've been trying to attribute it to the fact that 30 is staring me in the face. My best friend has told me flat out that this is not the case, that I, very simply, attract madness for whatever reason. Now. I've talked before about the incident with a rodent that will remain nameless. And who could forget seeing Spiderman on 5th Avenue. The things I see and that happen to me sometimes are priceless. Today was no exception. To start,...

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Being a "Quitter"

I got this from my cousin - she has a friend who is a motivational speaker. These are some of her words of wisdom. "it's ok to Quit....."Motivational Speaker - Veraunda Jackson1. Quit arguing with people about the same old foolishness! Respect their position and keep it moving!2. Quit telling people your secrets when you know they are not going to keep them! And if you keep telling them, then quit getting mad when they tell your secrets!3. Quit trying to pull people on your journey who don't want to travel with you. Either they believe in you and...

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When It's Ok to Be an Asshole...

So. I got myself caught up watching TV today. Yes, I watched the VMA's, solely for the Michael Jackson tribute. Job well done on that, MTV. (BET, take notes...lol) Of course, by now, I am sure that you have heard about the Kanye West/Taylor Swift debacle. It happened as I was preparing to turn off the TV (the tribute was over! Whaat?!). So when I saw the whole thing unfold before my eyes, my first thought was, "Nooooooooooooooooo...Kanye, what are you DOING??!??!?!?! You're being more of an asshole than usual!!!!"Now of course, when you think of...

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Your Help Is No Longer Needed...Thanks!

Ok. I love when I hear the following: "After all I'm doing to help you, the least you could do is..."Stop. Just stop. Why do I have to feel entitled to do you a favor or comply with something you asked for if you offered me assistance? And yes, this is going to sound utterly selfish, but here's the thing...I NEVER ASKED FOR HELP. Part of the reason that I do not ask for help is that I do not want to then later on feel entitled to do something in return that I am not sure I will be able to do. Another reason is that I hate when people offer their...

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Ignorance and the Fear of Knowledge

Ignorance is a POWERFUL drug that when people take it, is more powerful than any crack cocaine. Ignorance is a powerful narcotic that seeps into the veins of even the most educated.Ignorance, when used correctly, is addictive and hazardous.And the dangers of ignorance, much like cocaine or heroin or cigarettes, is well known. Growing up, we saw the catch phrases on the after school specials and non profit commercials: "Reading is fundamental"...."A mind is a terrible thing to waste"....you get my drift. So why are people so comfortable, so complacent...

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Monogamy and OPP

I'm sure everyone knows and remembers Naughty by Nature's song, "OPP". Those of you who hit up Grae events (www.graegram.com, www.graeenterprises.com - shameless plug, lol)have probably heard it at least once recently and bopped out HARD to it (who's down with OPP? EVERYbody!!) But think about this for a second. Most of us aren't down with Other People's Property...or are we?The interesting thing that I've noticed about relationships in this day and age is the lack of their true existence - or, rather, people's hesitance to get into them for one...

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The Punk Club

Some friends of mine and I were having a drink or two and "talkin' a likkle shite" and, of course, when you have two or more girls in the room, and alcohol is involved, the conversation inevitably turns to men and either a. what man of the day is pissing said girl(s) off, b. how men ain't 'shit', or c. who are we crushing on? Now, I am a firm believer in not generalizing: I am not one of those women who run around saying men ain't shit, because they're not, no one woman has met every man, and, if the men you keep encountering ain't shit on a consistent...

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Behind Closed Doors

WARNING: THIS BLOG IS NOT FOR THE PERSON WHO HAS A PROBLEM WITH TALKING ABOUT SEX...What's the freakiest thing you've ever done? Like, the stuff that you wouldn't even dare whisper around your mother for fear she would look at you and tell you "go 'long and get de belt"? Come close and whisper it inna meh good ear...No? You're not going to tell me? GOOD. I don't wanna know. And neither should everyone else. The thing is, your sexual experiences should be a private encounter. Granted, every girl has a girlfriend or two that they mention a freaky...

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Locs and the Ever Eluding Patience

I am currently approaching my first month of having 'locs'. On Thursday, I will get my hair washed (Oh thank GOD) and re-twisted. In this month, I have gone through quite a bit of self discovery and self examination. My loctician explained to me that the first six months of having locs is an exercise in patience: my locs will become frizzy and look slightly unkempt before eventually smoothing out. I looked at my hair today...frizz galore. Clearly I've skipped three months. And I've kept them tied when I wasn't running around. So I dunno. Sigh....

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Trust, Vulnerability, and the Purple Headed Monster

Picture this: your throat gets dry, your heart starts racing, your urge for some pholourie and buss up shot (or maybe BBQ chicken) is just GONE...butterflies in your stomach is the understatement of the year. What the hell is this? This is bull-sheet!Nah, it's just being vulnerable. If you're like me, the very thought of opening yourself up and showing someone else the softer side of you (or maybe just showing someone you, not even the softer side necessarily) causes your very being to freeze in place. With allowing yourself to be vulnerable and...

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Keeping it Real When None of the Above Apply

So interestingly enough, I got a lot of positive feedback on this early morning blog, both on here and on Facebook. One of the questions I've gotten (which is a question I pose myself) is: what if none of the usual stigmas apply? Then what? Hmmm. What if you've managed to get yourself into an undefinable, un "timed - not 12 pm or 4 am" relationship? In other words, what if you're just not sure? I've been there before...and while I can't say that I've done or are doing the right thing, I can say what might be your best bet:1. Look at the clues that...

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Keeping it Real? Uh, no...

You don't want the real.Seriously, no one REALLY wants the real.We run around, putting up these blogs and catchy one liners "I'm looking for a real (fill in the blanks)"But, let's put it all out there and keep it 'real' for once. What dude wants to meet a chick with the goggle eye glasses and the dry ass eczema or psoriasis patch on the 1st date? Wouldn't you rather go out with the shorty with the expertly applied M.A.C. face, designed to 'look' natural? Don't front, you know it's true... And ladies, come on now. We all say, "he's gotta be motivated....

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How "West Injun" are Yuh?

I compiled this list from various other lists of different nationalities. One thing I have noticed about us Caribbean people (read: West Indian) is that more often than not, we have many attributes in common. Below is a very condensed list. Being that I myself am Trini and Bajan, you might find more of that than others. However, I have tried to be as fair and impartial as possible. Despite the way we sometimes behave, we are all one.With that disclaimer written...come selector!You know you're from the West Indies when.... - Any hot beverage is...

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Spoken Word of KP's Past

QUASI FEMINISTICi think its too late to be a woman ...too late for the mystery to developtoo late…for ladies to emerge from this 21st century…thing we call womenbecause ladies can be women but honey…these women are definitely. not ladies.we've traded in the feminine mystique for the 9 to 5 dealand we became working mothers but weforgot that being a mother is workand I told you before, you're gonna be pissed at mebut I think the feminist movement is all for naughtbecause we're getting what we wantbut at the cost of ourselveswe forgot our balanceand...

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Motherhood & Being Single on the Cusp of 30...and Children's Clothes

I took my little girl school clothes shopping today. Spent 200 dollars easily. SIGH. What annoyed me about this process wasn't spending the money, but the fact that I had to purchase jeans for her 2 sizes bigger than her actual size. Why, you might ask? Because the jeans that they had for little girls are cut like the jeans they have for GROWN WOMEN. I mean, skinny jeans for a 6 year old? What the hell does a 6 year old have use for skinny jeans?? And you know what's worse? The damn things have the nerve to look GOOD on her...But seriously. What...

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